Stressed

I'm starting to feel the stress that comes with a wedding. I was kind of wondering when it would turn up.

I'm nervous that things won't come together the way I have them envisioned in my head. While I was making centerpieces, I tried the idea that was in my head and it looked ... terrible would be an understatement. I'm hoping that doesn't happen with the way I want the stage set up, or the paper lanterns, or anything else.

I'm also worried about the way everyone will look. I hope the room isn't exploding with color. All the groomsmen have different ties, and the bridesmaids have different flowers ... (ties and flowers match) I'm kind of starting to worry about that. It's going to be a lot of color, with no suit jackets to cover up really bright ties.

I'm also nervous about my parents meeting Garrett's parents. Not really sure why. I think this is normal.

I'm also kind of worried that my sister will cause more problems. She begged me to let her wear converse and have a sash on her dress, and I gave in because I was sick of her being a brat. (Granted, I'm wearing converse, but my dress is looong so you can't see them!) Now I'm kind of wishing I would've stood my ground because I think that it will look weird to have her wearing tennis shoes while everyone else is wearing heels or cute flats. I was just so sick of her giving me a hard time about it. I gave into the sash as long as she bought one for another bridesmaid too, and even though now there will be 2 people with a sash instead of just one, I still think it will look funny, but the truth is that a sash won't look good on anyone else. I just don't want to look at the pictures and have the first thing people say is, "Why is Haley wearing tennis shoes? Why do only 2 people have sashes?" Maybe I'll just tell Meredeth not to take any pictures of people's lower halves. *head desk* I don't even want to think about it.
I'm probably just super paranoid.

I just want it to
1. be perfect and
2. I want to prove to my mom/other people that I successfully planned an awesome wedding on what seemed like the smallest budget in the entire world. Everyone said that I couldn't do it, but I want them to come and say, "Holy crap. She did it."

I know all the material stuff doesn't matter because at the end of the day I am still marrying my best friend, but it's really hard to convince myself of that sometimes, because I still want things to look good.

At least I know that I'm going to have some awesome wedding pictures. Have I mentioned lately how excited I am that Meredeth is going to be taking them?